Wednesday, September 30, 2009

も一回泣いた

I am such an idiot.

Sorry for me being so sensitive, but what you want me to do?
I am born like this.
I am already so stress up with this fcuking exam, so can you please stop stimulating me anymore?!

Whatever you took, please be responsible and return to the owner.
I NEED THAT TO STUDY.
The 2-pages M.Word version, like I could understand that.
Why do you think I copied 3-4 pages in class?

I am not blaming anyone.
I just feel stupid.
I feel useless hopeless and angry over myself.

Plain idiot.
That's what I am.

Now go and wait die. Shuu...

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Posted by 尋 at 6:38 PM

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

やっぱ。。。

Never mine, I am fine.

I am just... Aah, whatever...><

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Posted by 尋 at 1:27 PM

泣いた。

Yes I cried. Again.

Feel relief after crying, yet the sadness will not fade.

So what am I? A black sheep?
Well then DON'T EVER TALK TO ME!

Straight As... 11As, all the 80+ 90+...
Wau you are so clever. FUCK YOU.

Why should I torture myself when no one ever appreciate it?
I wanna be an idiot. An idiot that knows nothing, cares nothing.
I wanna be an idiot that fails everything yet need not to cry over the failures.

I found my motivation, and then you crashed it.
So why should I continue? Might as well just quit.
Quit what? Quit everything. Quit this stupid life.

Don't you ever say you are proud for my result.
You contributed NOTHING but pulling it down.
Stop faking already.

I hate you. I mean it.

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Posted by 尋 at 12:56 AM

Thursday, September 24, 2009

嫌い嫌い嫌い！！

Such a negative title... But I am really fed up with some stuff happening around.

Am very stress up with exams now. Not because there's many stuff to study, but because I still haven't manage to start study.

Not much stuff to update anyway. Am starting to have the urge to quit the game. Don't ask me why. I'm just... tired. of everything. like I always do. like all idiots do. like all selfish and childish people do.
はい、俺はバカ。
Everything, back to zero. My studies too.
じゃ、おまえはバカじゃない？
Sore ja, bai...

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Posted by 尋 at 1:20 AM

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

だんだん忙しくなりますね

Few days ago I was just complaining how similar is my life now with holiday, and now everything is getting busy now. 2 assignments, mid term exam in 2 weeks time, JLPT exam in December... I really should start my study and working on the assignments. No more 24-7 gaming please... Haiz... This is why we should never let ourselves being addicted to something. And where has my 3-minute habits gone to?!! Damn, please get tired of this game asap!!

Oh and because of this, I am so broke now... T~T



I'll learn to bear with canteen food from now on... Even if it's almost the same everyday...

Recently everyone is addicted to cute emoticons!! Few examples shown below LOL~



They are so cute don't you think so~ XD

Don't know what else could I say now... But yea, I am still awake, simply because I don't want to sleep. And the worse thing is, I am actually very sleepy since evening... Hopeless, this is the word used to describe people like me >_>

Ahhhh, go sleep already SJ!!

Sore ja, bai...

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Posted by 尋 at 2:42 AM

Sunday, September 13, 2009

どうしてまだ独身ですか？

Well, since someone asked this question, I shall blog about why I am still single XD

First of all, I've spent my 11 years basic education in a full girl school. Thanks to CDK LOL~

Next, don't you think some guys especially those around my age are immature and stupid in some way? I don't mean to offend anyone, but seriously, this world is not all about love. Some, or maybe I mean most, are so desperate for gf... Why can't this people realize their future is more important that love? If you wanna impress the one you loved, can't you wait till you got your career, house and car? Hello, you can't even feed yourself and now you want to feed your girl?

Third, maybe my standard are a little too high. Not-bad-looking, able to THINK, quiet (I'll do the talking XD), bought his car with his own money, a career and house if possible. Oh and guitar or bass is a plus ^-^Control freak is a totally no-no~ I'll kill if he call every half hour.

However, if it's true that I won't care about all these standards when I meet the right person, obviously it's because I haven't met the one that is meant for me.

Guess that's all. I'll come back to edit if I missed out any. LOL~

Sore ja, bai~~

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Posted by 尋 at 3:20 AM

Friday, September 11, 2009

誰もいないので、悲しいです。

It's sad when there is no one there for you when you need someone to talk to ^-^ But come to think of it, you can't expect everyone to always be there for you right? This world is not all about you and only YOU after all.

Well, what I wanted to share is just some random stuff, so let's not wake someone up at this hour XD

Random stuff that I wanted to share:
1. Black and White is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO DAMN NICE!!!
2. It's really raining o_O... I guess the weather reports in Malaysia are quite accurate after all XD
3. I want a car, house and face like Chen Zai Tian... LOL~
4. I don't wanna stop watching the drama T___T But staying up late is bad... (I know I have no right to say this when it's 2:30AM and I'm actually BLOGGING?! = =)
5. Orange is so nice... Makes me feel so genki~
6. I realized that the game makes me feel high and had been causing me hard time when I try to sleep, but mp3 managed to cure that. Well, only slow songs of course.
7. I am SOOOO going to bankrup soon... Can someone please donate me some money? XD

Guess that's all. I promised I'll blog more, and spend less time on gaming... I hope? Sorry but I'll try T^T

Sore ja, bai~

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Posted by 尋 at 2:26 AM

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

オレンジのために

New layout, new name, same author XD
Orenji no tame ni, translation: For the sake of orange ^-^

After spending about 3 hours modifying the original layout, I finally get to sit down and wait for game's maintenance to be over LOL~

And so, bye-bye Ichigo~ I'll still love you as long as your hair are still orange so don't worry XD

Am so excited now hehe~ I mean, look at it, it's so ORANGE!!!

Oh and, finally get to wear my yellow jacket yesterday, with an orange t-shirt XD Hazel said I look like sun with the yellow+orange~ That reminds me of a song that sounds like this "Sun will shine, my friend~"

Okay that is very random ^-^" Anyway I'm thinking of installing a music player, but hav no idea which to use. I don't like imeem personally, any one know any other option??

Ahh~ Game patched!!! Sore ja bai XD

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Posted by 尋 at 3:26 PM

漫画＋ゲーム＋ドラマ＝今の僕

Seriously my life has been with these 3 stuff now.
1. Manga - Ops I mean mangaSSS
2. Game - The game of course...
3. Drama - Am currently addicted to Taiwan drama Black & White.

So let's blog about these three for today ^-^ And yes, what you are looking at is a post by a DIPLOMA student... Now you know why Diploma needs 2+ years.

My love over manga have never decreased >_> And no, online manga such as Onemanga are NOT INCLUDED! Manga are supposed to be in SOLID FORM! Plus online manga kills your eyes... Due to financial constrain, I always TRY MY BEST to keep away from comic stores LOL And then ONE MISTAKE... I bought Bloody Monday. The consequences? 6 volume in 1 month! That doesn't include series that I've been collecting anyway... This is why I have financial problem in every end of the month. And yes September is so gonna kill me T^T Look at the date, it's only 8th of the month. Almost RM100 spent =_= How do you think you can survive the rest of 22 days with just RM100? Still, Bloody Monday is a nice comic T^T As well as the rest of my collections XP Well, except some that I regretted buying >__> Therefore, I would still like to thank whoever invented comic~ And anime too~

--------------------------No manga no life--------------------------------

Next would be the game... I've finally reached Level 40, well, 41 now, but that is not important. Level 40 is the level that all players changed to their 3rd job. But no, I am still an aco despite the fact that I'm already 41. The reason is simple, to hunt heart. Plus I agreed on being the key supplier to lava for my guild leader and some other member, with the condition that they let me leech from 34 to 40, but no the leeching is not the leeching I want!! T__T Nvm, since I'm in need of cash I shall go hunt for the heart~ Shmay said that Oracle (my 3rd job) can heal mp O_o... Guess it'll be cool? But another guild member who is an Oracle told me that ora is boring =_= Maa... It's not like I got other choice, aco is boring too in some way. XXXXX everyday zZz...

Anyway, it's really bad to be addicted to something, especially RPGs. I feel bad to stayed up till 2am, but by the time I realized it's already too late. Sorry T^T I'll try to control, I hope... But seriously I got nothing else to do d... No lifer... Haiz~

-----------------------Got game no life-------------------------------

Last would be DRAMA~~ So excited~ Accidentally saw this lame+nice Taiwan drama Black and White. The story line is interesting, yet it's not total serious like those HK police drama. So many handsome guy and most of all, a YELLOW SPORTCAR!! *-* Anyway I still haven't finish the whole series, am still waiting for Hazel to finish then pass to me~ SO PLEASE FINISH IT FAST XD

OMG It's 1:30am soon... I better go sleep d T^T Anyone know how to handle this lost-track-of-time problem? Maybe I should buy a HUGE clock to put it in front of me... Haiz~

Sore ja, bai (T~T)/

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Posted by 尋 at 12:17 AM

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

もう　変わった

I had a sleepless night yesterday. Don't know why, but since I can't sleep, I let my mind fly. Before I went to sleep, I spent some time reading the book my high school friends wrote for me. Then I realized, I've changed. I don't know it's good or bad, no one knows. But I guess, people do change after all.

I really miss those days. Our classroom, teachers, friends, camps, group study, trips, tuition, and even the exams... Life's really nice back then, no worries at all. If only there's a time machine... I really don't mind facing SPM again and again if I get to spend all my life with these friends. The world is so big that people usually ended up with no real friend for whole life. But I am so lucky that I get to meet you guys. Yet time has to separate us.

Now I have so much to tell my friends. I have so many things in mind that I want to do with my friends. Enn, Ice, Haz, Eu, Lynn, Ohya, Kyuu, Rin, Pris, Shang, Mickey, I-donno, Christ, Wei Wei... I really miss you guys T^T Love you all always...

... That's all for now la... Sore ja bai T^T

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Posted by 尋 at 12:50 PM